When Friar Derrick Yap asked me to create a series of artwork based on The Canticle of Creatures for the 2025 Franciscan Calendar, my first response was “No, I can’t”. I was busy with other commitments, and I said to myself that “my art days were over”. But either he pretended he did not hear my response, or he really believed I could do it, because Friar Derrick insisted that I try.
That was around September-October 2023. I gave myself a deadline to produce at least two artworks by March 2024, but by April, I still had zero inspiration. I asked Friar Derrick to ask someone else. I even recommended one or two artists. But again, he “pretended” he did not understand what I said.
By mid-May, I was worried. I prayed that the Lord would move Friar Derrick’s heart – but what happened was that the Lord moved me instead. While I was praying one day, I realised that I had not done any art lately because I was afraid that I was not good enough. I had painted a few good paintings in the past and a few not-so-good ones. And because I had done a few good ones, I self-sabotaged by pressurising myself to always produce something that would be admired. I was paralysed by the criticism I had received before, especially from people who mattered to me.
I have no formal training in art, but during my Novitiate (second year Franciscan formation) in 2015, I found painting materials in one of the drawers in the friary and decided to try painting something. It was then that I learnt that the process of painting helped me to focus and to pray.
When I am painting, my eyes, my hand, and my mind are focused; my whole body and mind are “present”. I converse with God as I choose the colours, shape, and other details in the painting.
This memory of my novitiate journey gave me the courage to try to do the artwork for the calendar, but this time, I did not paint with acrylics. Instead, I did digital painting on my iPad.
I asked the Lord to guide me, to help me express my prayer and reflection in colours and shapes. And so, my three-week journey with The Canticle of Creatures began. It took me five evenings (9.30pm to midnight) each week to complete the artwork for the calendar.
I knew that when St Francis composed the canticle, he was not well physically. Therefore, the first thing I did was to imagine how he would have felt to have many diseases in his body. After praying each paragraph of the canticle, I stopped and reflected on the words.
Slowly, the words and my imagination of St Francis’ feelings and pain formed colours in my mind, and I tried to shape them into specific pictures. This was when the darker and more intense colours were chosen for the artwork for Brothers Sun, Wind, and Fire, and the much gentler and warmer colours for Sisters Moon, Water, and Earth. Interestingly, I found that the intensity of the colours correlated with the time spent. I needed more time to paint the “Brothers”, to reflect on my own struggles. The reflection on these “Brothers” also challenged me and my faith. When it came to the “Sisters”, the process was more comforting and easier.
There are nine artworks based on The Canticle of Creatures, and we added three more to have one artwork for each month of the year. These were inspired by important events in the life of St Francis – the Stigmata, the encounter with the wolf, and Christmas. They took more time as each of them challenged me to ask myself, “Who am I, really?” and “Who is God?”.
I thank the Lord for my renewed connection with the canticle. Through the praises of the creatures, I learnt more about God and myself. I am grateful and proud of each piece. They are not masterpieces, but they are honest prayers expressed in colours.
As we want people to be able to reflect on the canticle and the images, we have compiled an e-journal containing guided reflections. This can be downloaded using the QR code in the calendar.
I hope the calendar and journal will help everyone who is yearning for God. When we stop and look around, we can appreciate the goodness of God in our life, and as our response, live our life to the fullest, filled with joy.
Friar Robin Toha OFM
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